I don’t know if anyone pays as much attention to my scheduling of these things as I do. But if you do, you will have noticed that I put out my early/midmorning post today, and my middle-of-the-day post, but I missed my evening post. It’s because of a bunch of reasons, which all boil down to one: my sister’s in Chennai!
Remember how I put up all those posts about how she was going to Chennai and I got to come up with a massive shopping list to send with her? Well, that’s the good part. The bad part is, my sister and I are very very very close, and every time she is out of the country, I get progressively more off-kilter until she comes back.
It’s partly that we talk 3 times a day, so I keep having those things I want to tell her and then I can’t and it feels weird not to call.
It’s partly that it’s throwing off my daily routine, what am I supposed to do on my evening commute if we can’t talk at the same time? Or how do I decide what to have for lunch if I don’t call her and ask? I mean, I can kind of imagine what she would say, but it’s not the same thing.
And then there’s just the general existential angst. We’re close as in “can feel when each other is in pain” close. So there’s the little stuff, like last week she got heatstroke, I got a massive migraine out of nowhere. But the real problem is the sleeping! You know how Urvashi slept for 14 years so Lakshman could stay awake? It’s kind of like that. Only instead of one awake and the other asleep, I can only really sleep while she is asleep. The longer she is overseas, the more upside down my sleep schedule gets. I slept for 5 hours Sunday afternoon. And I’ve been up past midnight every night this week. It’s not good! And experience tells me, it’s just going to get worse. I’ve got another 3 weeks to go, expect many 3am postings.
Oh, and then the other reason there was no real late post tonight was because she saw Bahubali 2 in India and that gave me a sudden overwhelming need to see it again too, just like her heatstroke gave me a migraine (or else my migraine gave her heatstroke? One or the other) and therefore I went to the evening show and just got home. That’s kind of the practical reason, but seeing as it is going on midnight and I am wide awake, I thought I might as well mention the other reasons too. And forgive me if I am a little pie-eyed until May 21!
(Why are all the “missing you” songs about lovers instead of sisters? I think it’s because everyone else’s priorities are upside down. The sister bond is obviously the most important!)
And I know now you are thinking “oh, it’s all in her head!” But my sister travels internationally for work fairly often, and the same thing happens every time, no matter what I do, or how much I try to tell myself that I am making things up. If only she had a less exciting career, my life would be a lot easier! But, on the other hand, I do get lots of cool presents from overseas, so it’s not all bad.