Well, I seem to have stopped sleeping. Through my own stupidity, so I am also very angry at my past self. Oh well, maybe I can stay up all night tonight and reset my internal clock.
I am insanely sensitive to caffeine. Really all substances, I got high on Aspirin once, all floaty and buzzy and sparkly feeling. Meanwhile, my sister is slightly less sensitive. So we balance, she had her wisdom teeth out and they had to keep giving her anesthetic to knock her out because it wasn’t working; I got mine out, and they were slightly alarmed because I never seemed to wake up.
Anyway, this means if I have caffeine once a day before 9am Monday, Tuesday, and Wednesday it gives me a little burst of energy to get through the week. By Wednesday night, I am only sleeping 6-7 hours a night, but then I detox Thursday and Friday, sleep in on the weekend, and am back on caffeine on Monday.
Only, weekend before last I had the super busy hard day helping my parents, so I had to have coffee on Saturday too. And then last weekend I got a migraine which meant I had to take my caffeine-y migraine pills. And then I was just plain bad and stupid this week and I had a coke after 1pm on Wednesday and coffee yesterday morning.
The upshot of this being that I have been averaging 6 hours a night of sleep for the last two weeks, and this morning my eyes popped open after about 3 and a half hours and just stayed that way like they had little toothpicks holding them up.
And now those of you who have children are going “oh cry me a river! I WISH I could get 3 and a half hours of sleep!” But the rest of you, feel sympathetic! Although not that sympathetic because I know perfectly well that this is what happens when I have too much coffee and I did it anyway. I guess this is like having a hangover (not that I know, I don’t drink alcohol, I make myself sick with coffee instead), I feel awful but I also kind of know its my own fault and I shouldn’t look for sympathy.
Anyway, the purpose of this post! My sleepy songs songlist. So I can try playing them when I finally get to go to bed again, whenever that is. And if you ever have insomnia or jetlag or otherwise need to force your body to sleep when it doesn’t want to, they are there for you too!
This is the song I used to listen to right before bed every night in college. Soooo dreamy. In that, it feels kind of like the music you might hear in a dream. “Nahin Samne”
Another one, a Sufi kind of sound that just sends you deep within yourself until the world drifts away. “Hoshwalon Ko Khabar”.
One that is like the sound of a heartbeat, over and over again, soothing you to sleep. Amitabh reciting his father’s poetry, perfect rhythm and perfect words and perfect voice.
Normally I don’t like the female voiced songs before bed time, too high pitched to be soothing. Which is probably why I like Umrao Jaan songs, because Asha lowered her voice to make them more effective.
And then finally, when I really need to be soothed, “Inner World of Shahrukh”. The familiar songs weaving in and out, the fruity British accented narrator, and of course Shahrukh speaking in that light rapid Indian accented English, just puts me right to sleep.
All right, that’s enough of that! Time to get to work for the next 8 hours! And maybe today I take the bus instead of driving. Might not be good for me to be behind the wheel.